Day 3??!!!!

Day three. Well had two green smoothies today! (Go me!) Er but unfortunately, Sunday at the parents' house means Sunday dinner...so bring on the cooked veggies, stuffing (sans meat) and pie... Dear gods. No excuses here. I figured today wouldn't be so great and I suspect things won't be much simpler till I head back to my place about two hours away from here. *sigh* So that'll be tomorrow. At least now I've got a blender and some food and will be going shopping again (for more organics and gonna see if I can get some of that nutritional yeast for B-12). I still wasn't well today (sick last night so I didn't go out with the family for my mom's birthday), but I'm really hoping tomorrow I don't feel like utter crap and wind up consuming painkillers like they were candy. Yeah, I know.

I don't feel too bad knowing I was kind of expecting today to be sort of... ugh crappy I think but at the same time I wish I had some sort of Warrior Woman Iron willpower. Being around the unhealthy foods really does me in. Hence I do not keep any junk in my apartment, aside from sugar for my coffee/tea, jam for toast and syrup for pancakes (these aren't everyday things mind, well coffee and tea I'll admit I have a sort of addiction to them...and sugar, clearly).

Bahhhhhhhh. Anyway, I'm ordering Dr. Douglas Graham's book to give me some guidance and such.. See what happens there. If the results aren't so great, then I'll be looking to Angela Stokes. I've been reading one of the free e-books she's got on her website and it's been really good. Very down to earth and honest about the culprits behind weight gain and major health problems- refined sugars and processed foods. Obviously cooked foods aren't great either but many weight loss programs that eliminate the processed foods and refined sugars can bring favourable results... It makes sense really. I did Weight Watchers before and it did give me some success but it was temporary as I would over-indulge on an occasion and feel ashamed to record what I ate and therefore wouldn't count it into my daily caloric consumption. Downfall.

So... that's that. Done with the past attempts, I'm ready to change my life for the better to make a happier, healthy me that doesn't give up easily. One good thing about therapy, they teach you to accept your emotions and not suppress them by eating or being self-destructive in some other way. Right so anyway, cheers to tomorrow: a much better day! :)

Breakfast: 2 glasses of green smoothie (water, 3 large leaves of green leaf lettuce, 1 apple, 1 orange, handful of spinach).

Lunch: cookies... :( bad I know. Cooked cookies..ugh. Water.

Dinner: cooked food again. cup of turnip, cup of mashed potatoes, 2 roasted potatoes, 2 cups of stuffing.

Snack: slice of triple layer mud pie.

yes, pitiful. Mum's birthday. Family visiting. BaHHHHHHHHHH.